My doctor put her foot down yesterday, and said "no." I cried, even though I understood her reasoning. I am 38 weeks today, and the medical standards say that the earliest a doctor should electively take a baby out is at 38 weeks and 5 days. I can bear the discomfort of sciatica and general 'heaviness' for another week if that is what is best for this little one. My main concern was that I really wanted to insure that my doctor would be the one performing this difficult fourth c-section. If I go into labor this weekend, it will not be her.
I feel like such a whiney baby.
By next Thursday, this child will be here and all that matters is that she is healthy. Please pray for me that I will make it that long, and that the surgery would go smoothly. And, especially pray for the health of this sweet little one.
It is times like this when I must live like I believe. I am seeking to rest in His sovereignty above all else. He has never done me wrong, for he can not. It is so good to be His.